don't bother

Sigh~ Att C still go back camp just for some stupid MOI test; it tests on our presentation skills. fucking retarded. i've been thinking alot ever since i came back to camp and i'm feeling rather horrid now. maybe because my day started out wrongly, i tried to be optimistic since morning, but to no avail.

sometimes, i really hope there's a reset button in life, a point whereby we can "save" and if anything goes wrong, or any decisions made is wrong, i could simply "load" and start from there. this way, i could prevent the things that i don't want to happen, from happening.

we had nights off last night, and we're given a chance to go home. so yes, i did go home. went to jp to get some dvds to watch, zhiyuan, lijin and clement came over. watched little miss sunshine and music and lyrics. only got to slp at around 2++ am and woke up at 530..

first thing in the morning, we had close combat training. being a volunteer really sucked. i got punched and i got kicked TWICE in the face. the punch was avoidable, but i guess he was a bit nervous that's why i got hit. the kicking one was fucking ridiculous. those bastards were actually playing, not serious at all thats why they got into my lane and i got kicked twice consecutively. FUCK, i got really pissed.

random rants: i hate to say this, but fuck, what type of friend are you. when there are times of need, you will come to me for help, but when there isn't, i would be shoved aside and be disposed off. fuck, im not a tool, not an equipment. i want to say this straight in ur fucking face, but i can't make myself do it.

fuck, im useless. 

i 'll just have this livejournal as a private journal then, a journal whereby none of my friends would know its existence. i feel rather down lately, a weird feeling just got into me. it somehow reminds me of the negative days in JC, and it's really damn down this time round. maybe i'm too sensitive, and that explains why.

currently, i feel that i'm drifting away from the ones i usually hang out with, we're not as close as we used to be.

i think i might be thinking too much.

i wanted to talk to someone about it, but i can't find the right person to talk to.

fuck.

 I'm just trying this livejournal out, wonder if it's better than blogspot. I'm currently having my block leave, gotta spend this block leave fruitfully, have to play to my fill - this also meant that i'm going to get broke. I have been shopping for clothes lately, bought a shirt and a cardigan (wondered if i spelt correctly). For the past 2 days, i went out with my platoon mates. Had dinner at some restaurant, a japanese restaurant. It was a buffet, it cost me 40 bucks! But it was worth it. I guess sakae sushi isnt that great after all. The restaurant is at Odean Towers, can't remember what is the name of the restaurant. Played soccer at St Wilfred. I didn't get to kick! Played goalie throughout, and fuck, conceded 4 goals. I just sucked at soccer. Went over to dhoby ghaut to donate blood, but i got rejected. Due to the fact that i had fever on one of the days during the last 3 weeks. Qian, WY, Nian and I went to donate, but sadly, only Qian was able to do so. Then we headed to Ben's house. Fuck, his house is awesome. NICE. Too bad, it had to rain and the BBQ was ruined. It was a celebration for Ian VAN's departure, no no, a farewell BBQ. We had to shift things indoors to cook the food at his place. Left his place quite early for home.

Fuck, photobucket is wasting too much of my time. Uploading some photos would take centuries to upload. I guess I will only upload the photos at a later date.